Sigh

I'm resting now, but I've had an extremely busy morning.  Ben and I cleaned the ENTIRE house today...by the end, I was having some pretty intense round ligament pain.  Luckily, Ben helped so much and I was able to just lay down afterwards.  Now I'm resting in the bedroom watching GLEE reruns on my DVR (yes, sometimes I sing along) and stumbling the web.

I baked some Heath bar cookies today.  Haven't had any (they are for dessert for our company tonight), but Ben said they are good.  I'll take his word.  I made banana nut bread last night (from scratch), and I had a piece heated up with butter today after lunch and IT IS DELICIOUS.  om nom nom.

Fooooooooooooood

Food is so good.

Lately, I've been craving fruits and veggies.  Got a bunch of fresh veggies from the grocery store (lettuce NOT from a bag, tomato, green onion, cauliflower, and avocado) to make a salad.  I have croutons and tortilla strips to add as well as some ranch dressing.  YUM.  It's the best salad EVER.  

I also have some fresh fruits.  I used some of them to make a smoothie.  I got strawberries, bananas, Simply Orange oj for the smoothie.  Ben got me some grapes and raspberries to enjoy as well.  

YUUUUUUUUUUUUM.

I'm a healthy little chick.  (Just don't look in my freezer at the Reese's peanut butter cup Breyer's ice cream)

Names

Names I like for the baby:

If it's a boy: Felix Benjamin Ward
If it's a girl: Gwendolyn Jean Ward

Sometimes I can't help looking at the ultrasound picture.  It almost feels unreal that I have a little life growing inside me.  I've taken all kinds of steps to make sure that my body is a safe environment for the little one already.  I've given up caffeine (week 2), sushi (immediately), I've been drinking more milk (luckily I've been craving it), I've been taking my prenatal vitamins, drinking more water (even though I have to pee ALL THE TIME), stopped drinking my herbal tea (not supposed to be good for the baby), and have been staying away from medicines.

I've given up a lot, but it doesn't feel like I have.  It just feels natural to want to make sure that things are as perfect as they can be for my little baby.  It's unbelievable that in a couple weeks (hopefully) I may be able to feel him/her move around.  I'm sure I'll cry the first time.

So far, I like being pregnant.  I feel different, but in a very good way.  It's hard to explain.  I'm the most important thing in the world to my baby right now, and that's a heady feeling.  I can't wait to continue on in this journey!

Kurt on Glee.

I'm really getting tired of having Glee's episodes revolve around Kurt and his "gayness".  He's the most ridiculous stereotype of a gay person on TV.
He is: sassy, WAY into fashion, has a super high voice, dramatic, pushy with his beliefs for you to accept him because that's the only opinion that matters, sings show tunes, hangs out with ONLY girls (minus his new boyfriend), loves to dance, has a lisp at times, and goes against anything that could be considered masculine.

What is wrong with having a gay character that acts like they did before coming out?  I have known people to come out, only to have suddenly gained a lisp and begun to talk like a woman in a higher pitched voice than they had previously.

Why does it have to change?  You can still be the same person you were prior to coming out and like people of the same sex.  You don't have to fall into a stereotype.  It is absolutely ridiculous.

Surprise!

Baby Ward is expected to be here Nov 29-Dec 2

Really?

Some people just really surprise me, that's all.

Party all the time.

Went to a party last night, it was pretty fun.  I forgot that there are actually some fun people in this town.  Like I've said before, Ben and I have been such homebodies...haven't really gotten out and around with people here much.  Meh, I really don't think we've been missing out, but it was nice to get out last night.

I have someone ordering another Hello Kitty painting from me.  I'm sure Megan Haney, who does our anniversary photography, showed my work to the newest customer and she contacted me.  Thanks, Megan!  I love doing stuff for other people, and I think this one is going to be a lot of fun.

Work is work, I'm tired and worn down from it, but I think that comes with the end of the school year.  I'd love to say that the classroom I work in right now is wonderful, but I can't.  I don't think that I'd enjoy working it another year just because of the lack of work from some of the adults.  The kids are the ones who suffer.  I can't do all the work and get paid for less than half of it.  Not going to do it.   Nope.  I just need something to open up at Cameo or Ranchvale...hell, almost ANY school in the district so I can get my OWN classroom again.

I applied to the Masters program at ENMU, so hopefully I can get the ball rolling on that.  Until then, I'll just sit and twiddle my thumbs.

Ben and I went and saw Thor in theaters today.  It was OK, but they had to add in a darn love story.  Hello...sometimes I just want some fighting and action in a comic book movie.  Don't need to add in a love story bit for me.  Nope.  To add to my movie watching experience, I had a kid behind me (had to be at least 11 or so) kicking the crap out of my seat.  I ignored it for about 10 minutes when I finally turned around and gave him a look.  The kicks continued.  2 more looks from me, and finally I just turned around and said, "Please stop kicking my chair."  It stopped for about 30 minutes and then started again.  I asked again.  Loudly, the dad said, "Are you still doing it?  Just switch with your brother."  Yeah, good idea...except that didn't happen and the little shit kept on kicking.  Had I been his mom or dad, I would have been on his case to knock it off.  It's the mindset that parents get into where they think their kids don't do anything wrong...and ruin things for people.
I obviously like children, I'm a school teacher for goodness' sakes.  My problem with kids usually goes directly to the parents.  What is wrong with parents lately?  Are they really afraid to discipline their children?  Do they not know that the kids HAVE to listen and that the parents are in control?  I actually had a mom tell me that she couldn't clean out her three year old son's backpack because he wouldn't let her have it.  I wanted to say, "Ok, lady, watch me.  I take his backpack from him every single day."  Stupid lazy parents.  After the first look, I would have let my kid know that he needed to stop flinging his legs around like he was having a seizure.  After all of it, I would have really gotten onto him.  You're teaching your kids that it's ok to ruin someone's experience at a movie theater.  Good job.