Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Things to do in MO:

1. Shop for a crib/dresser at Nebraska Furniture Mart.
2. Get my wedding ring cleaned.
3. Have baby showers.
4. Get some dang maternity pants/shorts/skirts. (My hips are much wider than my waist, and Baby Ward is quite comfortable laying low...which makes buttoning my pants hard!)
5. Hang out with all of my friends (duh.)

That's all I can think of right now.  I've got a million thoughts running through my head.

Here's the most recent picture of the belly:

Finally getting my cardiologists switched.

So here's my problems with the cardiologist here in town:

1. He doesn't actually like women. When Ben goes with me to an appointment, he talks to BEN, not me, and expects Ben to answer all the questions about how I'm feeling and any symptoms I'm having.  Yeah, that makes sense.

2. It took him 4 months to figure out that my pacemaker battery was dying.  He tested my blood for all kinds of problems, and actually told me, "When I first saw you, I thought you had a thyroid problem."  What is that supposed to mean?  He had me wear a heart monitor for 24 hours and then neglected to call me with any results.  He scheduled me for appointments, but then basically told me he didn't know why I was feeling out of breath, dizzy, tired, etc...

3. His office has rescheduled my appointment times to get my pacemaker checked several times without telling me, then when I come in, they tell me I missed my appointment.  The ladies at the front office sneer at me and tell me that I'll have to wait while they find room for me in the jam packed schedule.  When I try to have them listen to the voice mail that I get telling me my exact appointment time, they ignore me.  Once, I went in, and they had locked the doors and weren't answering the phone.  I left, and 30 minutes later, they called asking why I had missed my appointment.  I told them I was there 10 minutes early for my appointment, and the doors were locked.  They told me that they were there and were waiting one me.

4. The front desk refuses to do anything BUT make appointments.  The front office person that used to work there would send in the referral renewal paperwork to make sure I was completely covered by TriCare whenever I went in.  I had already had a doctor refer me there, the front office person would just renew it.  The appointment I had a couple months ago, I had made and asked them to check and make sure that my referral hadn't expired.  The person that works there now said I was fine. I called the day of my appointment, and they told me that I didn't have any referral and no one had told me that I did and that I would either have to reschedule (the pacemaker people are only there once a month) or pay for it all out of pocket. I asked her if there was any way she could help me, and she told me no.  I called the TriCare office, and they wanted to speak with the doctor's office.  She refused to call them.  When she finally did, she said that TriCare had said they weren't going to pay for it.  I finally got a hold of Dawn at the TriCare office and she took care of it for me.  When the doctor's office called me and told me that the referral had come through, they were snappy on the phone about it.

This has nothing to do with the people that come from Amarillo to do the pacemaker checks (because the doctor's office isn't equipped to check them), the errors come from the doctor and his employees.

All of this stress compounded with the fact that I have a heart condition isn't helpful to me at all.  I don't enjoy being jerked around and having people give me attitudes when I'm trying to take care of myself.

I had an appointment to get my pacemaker checked on the 24th.  They called and confirmed my appointment, and then called back 5 minutes later and told me that the people who come to check the pacemakers had suddenly cancelled.  This has never happened before and the front office person couldn't give me a reason.  She rescheduled me for the 29th of July, over a month after my appointment date.  This was the final straw, I've had enough.  I called and made arrangements to be seen by the doctor who performed my replacement pacemaker surgery in December of 2009.  I don't mind making the drive to Amarillo as long as I don't have to be seen by the doctor here in town.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

More journaling.




Needs and Wants

Favorite Quote

Family tree

3 Wishes

I'm having a good time doing these pages!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Not to sound like a Debbie Downer, but this year's birthday just wasn't that exciting.

I am used to being home and having all my friends around me at a party, my mom and dad with me that day.  Just wasn't the same this year.

We had a party last night, but no one actually knew it was my birthday until like 1am.  Cool.  Made me feel kind of crappy.  Then I was supposed to pick my favorite place to go in town (Shoguns), but because no one else wanted it, I had to choose somewhere else.  Cool.  Nothing else special today, didn't even get to play The Game of Things.  I'm actually pretty sad about it.

This was my golden birthday (26 on the 26th), and it was just another day.

Friday, June 24, 2011

My friends are here!

YAY!  At around 9:30ish last night, my friends Falco, Vanessa, and Eli came rolling up to our house from Missouri. I love having friends out.  Makes living out here in Clovis more bearable.
No plans for today yet, I might take them on base to show them Ben's work...maybe grab some Burger King for lunch or something.

Last night, I had a dream that I was kidnapped along with my brother (not my real brother) and he was tortured by the kidnapper.  Somehow we escaped and were trapped in Mexico City because the killer had paid the police off.  We were on the run, and the American news and police were there...and somehow Kim Kardashian was involved and offered to give 1 million to the kidnapper to let us go free.  I ended up escaping somehow and was walking through Walmart (although it was more like a mall) while talking on the phone with Mary trying to evade the kidnapper.  After that, I woke up and decided to make myself some coffee.  ha.

I made a couple more journal pages while watching movies.  Ben decided to cancel one of our DISH packages to make our bill cheaper, and then got a really crazy good deal getting Shotime and HBO together. We are paying pretty much the same amount, and now we get to watch all the shows we like, and miss because they're only on those channels.  I've been enjoying movies, and in 2 days, I get to watch True Blood season 4 premier!

What my heart is full of

Line design page

Thursday, June 23, 2011

What's the deal

with people flying off the handle lately?  The littlest things are setting people off, and it's ridiculous.  Shouldn't I be the crazy hormonal one, since I'm pregnant?  Seems like people around me are just cranky.  I guess I'll just have to deal, but DANG.

I did a couple more journal pages, but no pictures right now.  I'm lazy right now.  Gotta get over it because I have lots to take care of today.
To do list:
1. Clean bathroom rug
2. Clean window in guest room (soon to be nursery!)
3. Wait around for person from housing maintenance to come fix our bathroom light
4. Vacuum all floors in house
5. Remove dog/cat hair from furniture
6. Clean up kitchen
7. Declutter house
8. Clean up bedroom
9. Clean up guest room (soon to be nursery!)
10. Finish laundry

Phew.  I can do it, I can do it.  I don't want to, but I totally can.

Maybe instead of talking about it, I should just go do it.  Yeah.

Everyone have a great day!

Monday, June 20, 2011

I stink at the journaling thing, but here's why...

I AM HAVING A BABY GIRL!  Yes, soon, I will have a daughter, and I couldn't be more happy!

We went to Miracle in Progress and got an early ultrasound done (I'm 16 weeks and 6 days as of today) to check the gender.  If we waited for my next doctor's appointment, my mom and Mary would have 1 week to plan the baby shower around the gender.  Plus, now I can register for specific stuff.

ANYWAY, it was a totally amazing experience.  We go into this big room, and it's really nice and dimly lit.  There are 2 couches in there for visitors to come in with you for the experience.  There is a large bed (not the hospital bench things you lay on in the doctor's office) and right in front is a giant projector screen on the wall.  I don't have to look at a small monitor, I can see my baby on the big screen!  So we're checking everything out and the tech tells me that my baby has a very strong heartbeat.  I'm not ashamed to say that this made me tear up a bit, especially because I could SEE her heart beating when I was told that.  I had eaten before going in hopes of getting the baby to move around so we could have better luck checking the gender, but she was relatively calm.  The tech showed me that her belly was full, and then the baby started to suck on her fingers and yawned really big, stretched and then settled in!  I think she was about to take a nap.  It was absolutely amazing to see!  I was nervous that we wouldn't be able to see the gender, but the tech tapped on my belly and got a shot (after the baby finally moved her little feet out of the way).  Definitely a girl!

It is so real.  I am just so excited!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Sick sick sick

I have a couple journal pages to post, but I'm still behind.  Camp Inventions took it out of me, and then I got super sick yesterday.

Getting sick sucks always, but getting sick when you're pregnant is even worse.  I can take the uncomfortable-ness, but I was just worried that it was going to effect the baby.  I called the dr twice and got some advice.  No cramping or anything.  Just sore, in and out of the bathroom until like 3pm, and puked a couple times.  Blech.  I stayed in bed all day, and Ben went to the store to get me some plain chicken noodle soup and some bananas.  (I read somewhere that they act as an antacid) Got a fever last night and tried to break it by drinking some water and having a cool compress on my head.  It wouldn't go down.  At 10pm, Ben drove down to the gas station and got some extra strength Tylenol for me.  I took 2 and fell asleep.  When I woke again at 1am, my fever was gone, and my back and legs had stopped hurting.  I'm so glad to be feeling better now, Ben took such good care of me yesterday.

I'm resting today.  Getting some laundry done, but taking breaks in between loads.

See ya later.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

15 Weeks Today!

The little baby growing inside me is 15 weeks old.  I can't wait to start feeling the baby move around.  I just CAN'T WAIT!

I have been looking for more resources around where we're living now, and there just aren't any.  There are some on base, but nothing like there is in KC.  I will wish until I'm blue in the face that we lived somewhere else. I know it's wearing on both Ben and myself.  Driving the same dirty roads past the same broken down houses day after day.  I'd love to be around my friends and more scenery.  Ah well.  Gotta stay positive.  We won't be here forever.

My simple journal entry for today:

Speaking of CI, the other teachers are noticing the things that I noticed last year.  The director homeschools her kids.  Now, don't get me wrong, homeschooling is a viable option for some families if the parent is committed and knows what they are doing.  Frankly, the director doesn't know what she's doing.  She buys insanely expensive curriculum for each child, and her daughter doesn't know how to read.  (She's in 2nd grade).  I understand wanting to keep the kids "safe" from public school, but she's keeping them from knowing how to interact with other adults and children.  They are rude, disrespectful, and don't follow any rules.  One said that he didn't have to because his mom was the director.  HA!  Her youngest boy was running through a crowd of parents bouncing one of those small rubber balls and almost hit a bunch of people.  He was supposed to be sitting down with his group.  I came up to him and took his ball and told him that he needed to sit with his group and not run through the group.  The director said, "Oh, Danielle, that's my son."  Like I shouldn't get on to him or something?  I said, "Yes, I know, but I think that he needs to go sit down and stop running around because he's tripping people."  She told him to obey me and then smiled in a sweet sick way at me.  I wanted to smack that smile off her face.
I can only hope that when I have my child, his/her manners will be better than that.  I know they will be, because Ben and I have manners.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Camp Inventions

One day down, 4 more to go.  I'm so thankful that's it's only a week.  The work isn't hard, but the lady who runs it is a BIT neurotic.  She gets mega stressed about ANYTHING and it's silly.  As a teacher, you have to learn to let things slide off your back because things get chaotic sometimes.  She homeschools her kids, so she doesn't understand that.  Oh well, it's $525 tax free for a week of easy work.  That's a little over $100 a day.  I'm definitely OK with that.

I have a job interview on Wednesday for a job I'd REALLY like to have. I'm going to pray about it.  At this point in my life, it would be PERFECT for me.  I'm just going to pray and relax and I know whatever is supposed to happen will happen.  Sigh.  Sometimes it's really hard putting things in God's hands.  That's where my life is supposed to be, just hard to do it sometimes.

I'm doing the 30 Day Journal Challenge (although I'm starting late because I saw that it started way late).  I'd really like to finish all 30 days...although it may take me longer.  I'm going to Las Vegas next week and I'm sure we'll be super busy.

Here's day 1.  I need a new pen.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

What have I been doing this week?

*Trying to figure out new stuff to bake.
*Making a blanket
*Watching True Blood Season 3 (because it finally came in the mail!)
*Cleaning some
*Playing with my dogs